From a Mothers Heart for the week of January 5, 2012

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By Bea Wallen

  Bea Wallen

From a Mothers Heart

May Our New Year Resolution Bring Spiritual Renewal


The birth of a new year is a time of reflection with it an opportunity for change whether that means adopting healthier habits, pursuing a long held dream, or developing a greater appreciation of what is most important in life. I’m sure that most of us can recall our most successful New Year’s resolutions as well as the ones we were never able to achieve.

For many years every January I would sit with pen in hand to write my goals and resolutions for the coming year.  Despite having had the best of intentions however I never quite managed to keep them as they lost importance throughout the ups and downs of the subsequent twelve months all too quickly I was back sitting at my desk the following year, often repeating the very same aspirations. I finally realized how pointless this was, writing down things I never managed to achieve or achieved to a lesser degree than I had hoped.

         The frustration and lack of vigor I felt has to do with a cataclysmic event, The death of a second son who was whisked abruptly from our lives four years ago this month. His sudden and unexpected death left great upheaval and unexplainable pain in our lives once again.

         I came to reflect on how fragile life is and that how our most precious gifts in life might be taken from us at any moment.  I now marvel at what a treasure each new day is and understand that if I look hard enough learn from it and move through it with joy and yes bliss that will be resolution enough. When I gather my family around me and tell then how much they are loved that too would be resolution enough. If I take a few moments each day to really look at the beauty of this world and all it’s creation, which can resolve a resolution in me to be appreciative of all the ways God has blessed us.

         I cannot count on another day being given to me I cannot assume I will wake up or that others I love deeply will awaken each day. As a result, I have lived with resolve every moment if every day in the years since my son died. I no longer try to achieve make goals that stretch far into the future but try to achieve to learn, to wonder and to keep gratitude in my heart for each tender mercy. I pray for God to renew me with spiritual strength to renew my vigor and to completely trust him for a new dawn, a new year and for each new blessing. We never know what waits around the bend but it is enough more than enough that God knows. Isaiah 40:29 “He gives power to the weak and to those who have no might He increases strength.” The Bible teaches that spiritual strength involves the power to lift burdens, a foundation deep enough to resist external pressure and the security of unlimited resources. God promises to renew out strength as we depend on him in trusting expectations.

         “For this God is our God for ever and ever: he will be out guide even unto death” (Psalm 48:14). May our Lord’s continued blessings be upon us, one and all… Love and Faith enough to light the way of Hope ahead as we enter into another year.

From my heart